good... night?

finally, we reached the point where there is no night at all, not complete at least. it always remains a little bit of light... so we'll see how this looks like in the middle of june!

next week!

all monday (5th) working, but for a "just a second" (but not really :P) visit. and at night i just felt like watching an o.c... it wasn't the same without andrea, but gerard came to watch it with me, and also igor and victor came for a while...

and in the last minute, as usual, i prepared my next day's presentation. i re-used another project from two years ago, so i got "a lot of work" in quite little time :D
so i still had time to go to play and try these action and reaction laws, and laugh a bit myself, why not, ahah.

and tuesday morning i just had to prepare everything for the evening and then leave to the presentation. the critics were just as expected, and the relation between time-spent and critic-received couldn't have been better, so, happy!

back home, and... let's say 19.30? ok, but to go where? who knows... ah, yes, here it is, the sunset! [happy -late- birthday!] always so nice in södermalm... so get a beer and enjoy =) (but watch out, they grow, ahah)





and back in sundby a visit to victor, but not much more to do, so i made a cake for myself (at 12!) and happily waited in my chill-out corner, with my cake and my series!

on wednesday i spent all day finishing my swedish essays, i sent 5 of them together to my teacher that evening! so nothing but a just a second visit until night, that we organised a dinner at home because lukas returned from germany that day :)

we arranged an intensive studying day, from 9, with gerard, and later alberto joined as well (after singing stupid movie songs for a while, ahah). i then went to kind of say goodbye, before 5, and more swedish until night.

we went to uli's for a pre-party, and then left to kth to the quarnevalen's tent. it wasn't so good, so we moved to cafe bojan. and everything perfect until we came home, that it was as if i had suddently realised or assimilated that andrea was not at home, and i felt i couldn't sleep there... but luckily there are always friends here to help, no matter how late it is, thank you... :)

and friday again studying all day! most day with gerard, and victor coming from time to time, or else talking on messenger about how "amazing" it was that gerard and me logged in always at the same time, or showing us facts such as this (of course the answer by then was yes) :P
it was a nice day, though! even when everyone went to sleep i still stayed until... who knows, but i was on a nice mood!

so saturday (10th) to the swedish exam without sleeping almost anything, but fine. and the exam went quite better than expected! let's wait for the results...

after that i went walking in stockholm looking for some stuff, and making time until i met the others to go to the quarnevalen parade. so funny! we were first laying in a park, enjoying the sun (it was so hot that day!) and then the parade passed by... all the floats were so geek! we laughed a lot, i'll try to get the pictures soon to show... [here is the link to lukas's pictures of the quarnevalen]
many people stayed a bit longer when it finished, but i needed to go back home to try to sleep at least one hour, because at night at my place we had a... superheroes party!

it was just great, so many people desguised, and so funny! and the party itself was 516 style... until security came for second time and told us to leave (and got fined afterwards, 850 kr, no less! not fair, not fair...). and quite a confusing night in many other senses, but always with a good feeling... strange.
and btw, i was sailormoon =)

on sunday we went to stavsnäs by, in the archipielago, to have a barbacue. nice trip there, a place on the top of the rocks, a woman shouting because of the fire, some sausages... but jana and me didn't stay so long. i still had to come to clean all the mess of the party...
but later we went to uli's to see the sunset and play twister, and at night a film in jana's :)



monday (12th) was the unluckiest day in the year, everything went wrong! first kth's mail about being fined, then helsinki tickets sold out, i finally bought my flight back to spain... i decided to go to the laserwar, and unlucky even then, my gun was broken! but at least i found a nice poster [have you smiled at a stranger today? happypill] :P
at night we were playing cards at uli's, and said goodbye to alex (uli's friend, nice guy!). and then, back in my flat, a late conversation made everything look better, seeing at least that this "missing" feeling was not so stupid as i thought... [oh, and the new white t-shirt...! :D]

and on tuesday i just had time to finish tidying before going to pick my parents! family life for a week...

tallin 12-14 april

ok people, here you are, pictures... :)
(i do what i can, i have almost no pictures yet!)

arrival and the boat
student meeting
"playing tetris" in the cabin (and we made it even more difficult! :P)
rainy tallin...
entrance to the old town
our group!
old town...
old town...
main square
city hall
old town...
old town...
¿?
old town...
the cake! i mean, the church...
tallin :)
old town...
the nice cosy restaurant :)

the first countdown

the last time i wrote i said "the last normal days", because since andrea said she was leaving there was a feeling of countdown all around. and that was just the first one, because just after that it seems that everyone started to realise this is eventually coming to an end, so i think this feeling is going to remain here all the time left...

...

on wednesday (23rd) it was st. jordi, a very important day in catalunya, with a tradition of giving a rose to girls and a book to boys. so gerard (he was in barcelona) told igor to get some roses for the girls, and he came to our flat with 3 roses (for maite, andrea and me) and a paper that read "estoy espiritu de gerard y yo traigo flores para vos" :P
oh, and were really beautiful roses...

i had swedish class in the afternoon, and after that we went to jordi's place to greet him, and then some o.c. with andrea :)

on thursday (24th) we organised a big family dinner in our place, and almost everyone came, it was so nice! and afterwards we went to cafe bojan, always fun! again half sundbyberg was there, we went the ones from the dinner on our own, but the others arrived just as the same time. and also the lappis people from the gipsy wedding were there! (they celebrated a gipsy wedding from wednesday to saturday, and went desguised to these parties and so... :P) btw, it was funny to establish a protocol that after that wasn't used even once!

so on friday i didn't go to class, i just joined the others there to have lunch together! (the last time...) and in the afternoon instead of staying there we decided to go to kungstradgarden to have an icecream lying on the grass, with the sun... :D it seems like swedish people don't go to work with nice weather, or something like that, because since those good days started the city is so full of people everywhere!

so after some coincidences there and a short walk to skeppsholmen, we came back to sundbyberg to prepare something for the international dinner we had in the terrace... not like the first one of course, but quite a lot of people! and everything so tasty...
afterwards we were supposed to go to a party in dkv, but we decided to stay "the family" in our place, playing uno, mafia, burro... and it was a great decision, we had such a good time!

the most interesting thing we did on saturday morning was make jokes about ogame, both andrea and me... :P

*we are 11 of us now playing, in an alliance (sundby), and it's worth since the two days we spent looking for funny names for all, and then everyday we have something to say/joke about it...

so, on saturday afternoon we made up a plan ("out of the blue", eh andrea? ahah) we went to the city (though i went a bit later, but for good reasons!), a coffee in a terrace, a walk to gamla stan, meeting sundby people at every step! back to södermalm, nice views, nice weather, dinner in cafe art, t-centralen... and when they went back to sundby i stayed because the portuguese and other sundby people were coming to go to some club. we didn't enter any club finally, but we tried in several, just as the first days in august! :P but, as always (or that day even more), nice to walk in stockholm at night...
so we came back to sundby and went to julien's, an improvised party! some drinks, badly-rolled cigarettes in the terrace, trying "new trousers", pedro in a fancy skirt :P, a bit of robbie williams...

and the next day (27th) picnic/barbacue all day! we went to haninge, in the south of stockholm, to a very nice park with lakes, forest... so we ate there and played a lot of games, just like kids!
so we came back all sunburned, and tired, so the others didn't go to joao's birthday, but i did... (well, first a nice dinner and o.c. with andrea... =) those are the best moments!) we were in the terrace, not so long, but nice time! btw, funny to find out that portuguese happy birthday is the only one with a bit more lyrics than just one or two same sentences like in other languages!!!

the next days i had to study a bit, mainly during the day, but not much!

and on monday maurice came back to visit! :D:D:D so we all met in the terrace, and then went to play some games in victor's, again until so late! (all waiting with victor's and joao's friends that had to get the 3am bus)

and tuesday just swedish class (the last!) and a small dinner at home. we had to rest a bit for the next day...

valborg! (30th april) the biggest student party in sweden, just in two cities: lund and uppsala, and this second one happens to be less than one hour away from stockholm, so...

we went quite early (8:55 bus!) because at 10 started a race of self-made boats, so funny! and then we went to a big park with concerts. it was all full of people! and it was funny to see uppsala students bringing all their stuff there, even sofas! so well prepared... and everyone drinking so much, since early in the morning and the whole day...

we stayed in this park most part of the day, it was sunny, and really nice to be there all together. we were quite a big group, and all of us either with the sundby-shirt or a black one instead (it reminded me of cantalejo!) :D

some people left along the afternoon, but most of us stayed, and after the park we went to max to have dinner, in the centre, and then to a corridor party (to behave like teenagers, ahah).
we came back by train, just like half of stockholm students, i met a lot of known people there! and it was also a nice way back, with a nice and sweet nap...
there was an after-party when we arrived to sundby, but after 15 hours partying i needed to go straight to bed...

april didn't start so well, andrea finally started packing. and it was then when i definitely realised she was leaving, when taking away the [f***ing] flower... but we made a cute moment of it after all.
she then had to leave all afternoon, but at night we had dinner together, with o.c., just as so many other times but for the fact of knowing this was the last one...
and later we went to say happy birthday to alberto, but he wasn't there so we left the candles and a picture of us with the candles at his door, quite funny!

friday (2nd) turned out to be a long long day! we went out quite early to handle in some papers in SEB office, and then some shopping until it was time to go to the spanish embassy. we were invited there to have lunch: buffet, drinks... nice :)

and then we came back to prepare alberto's birthday, we organised an italian dinner for him! (btw, nice time preparing everything with andrea, maite and belen) but it was also constance's birthday, so we first went all to the terrace, had some drinks together, and then i took alberto home with a quite bad excuse while the others prepared everything for the dinner and then surprise him when we came back. and the french girls had also planned another dinner in constance's but they decided to join us in the terrace, so we were so many people!
we were there a couple of hours, and then some people had to go to study, and the rest we went to constance's flat to continue the party. i wasn't exactly in the mood at the beginning, but i pushed myself a bit (though i know that it doesn't usually work so well, but...). it was fun, anyway, and we have quite many silly pictures with wigs and cooking utensils :P

andrea woke me up on saturday because we had received a "formal invitation" to a lunch in victor's, hosted by himself and diego :D it was everything delicious, and so cosy! thank you guys!
then back home to continue packing (in 516 we have turned out to be experts in tetris, not only in fridges but also with luggage!), and at 5 i had a "hard time" trying to make andrea believe me when i said we had to leave... but we managed. running, but we arrived on time... maite, belen, neus, mar and jordi were waiting for us to go to the kungliga opera! we went to see the swan's lake, just amazing, breathtaking. and even just the building itself was worth going...

and back to sundby, where everyone was waiting in my room... a very big goodbye dinner, all the family there! it was really nice, every moment... the meatballs, the best tyresö brownie ever, sasha's dance with andrea, vodka shots to empty a whole bottle and andrea "fulfilling belen's wish" just the last day in stockholm, our moment in the room, party in my room (with saturday night and other usual 516 hits!), the big table breaking and us falling to the floor...

when everyone left i just stayed tidying, because 1 hour later andrea had to wake up. so she did, picked up everything while some people arrived to say goodbye, then everyone downstairs to the taxi, and that was it.....

hej hej my little girl!
do you remember that day you asked about, like in o.c.? so let's say 15th of may then... =)

the last "normal" days

half a month late again! this memory effort is exhausting... but i'll try!

when laia left we had to work a lot, because we had presentation that friday.

on tuesday (15th) we went to school all day, and then to tyresö, to celebrate jose's birthday with a great dinner (tyresö style!). we didn't stay that long, but still it was around 13 hours out of home... so we arrived to sundby completely wasted!

* and if i hadn't been so wasted i might have taken a flight to kiruna! but then i wouldn't have found out that there can be tangible proofs for things i thought it was impossible to prove... =)

and the next day i finally broke down. after being half ill 2 weeks, i had to stay all wednesday at home, not so nice time :$ but at least i recovered a bit!

so on thursday intensive working for the presentation, always so nice working together with these people... but that was the last time! :( from now on, individual project...

and on friday (18th) the presentation was kind of nonsense, as the previous ones. they focused in stupid issues, and said very little about our project, so we were all very disappointed after that. i just decided not to care more about this subject, to do just the minimum to pass, and the others took a few days to decide if they wanted to continue or not...

anyway, we had lunch all together, like the past presentation, this time in an italian restaurant, and in the afternoon we went to listen to an organ concert in st jacob's church! then a coffee in kungstradgarden, some games in a terrace there, and back to sundbyberg to have dinner all in our place...

on saturday [the wait finished!:D] we went to tyresta natural park, in the south east of stockholm. we spent the day there, walk, picnic... beautiful place! and at night we gathered at uli's place, to drink mini-shots of different types of liquors, and then we tried to go to a place in södermalm but it was closed because of computer problems! (¿?) so we went to the pubs in main campus. i don't like that place that much, but i liked the people, so...
[- really, no need to care, go do whatever you want. - oh, i can do whatever i want? whatever? - sure! [...] :O oh, nice...]

sunday morning (20th) was stressful! it was victor's birthday surprise, and we couldn't contact him! and when we finally did he said he couldn't come!!! so uncertainty until just 5 minutes before having to leave... but everything ok!

so to the pendeltag, without him knowing where were we going :D a trip to the middle of nowhere, train, bus, walking... and when we were arriving (to the paintball place!) we blindfolded him, and he stayed like that while we dressed him/we got dressed, and until we reached the middle of the forest, where the paintball court was. imagine his face when he opened his eyes!

and then the paintball was so fun! the first game maite and me where quite scared, at the back until almost the end, ahah, but we started getting more and more confident, and by the third game we were even ahead of the boys! ueee! of course, the absoulte winner, the red team! :D

we came back sooo tired... and sunburned! but shower and to carlos's birthday party! it was nice, just the perfect amount of people and a nice mood :)

on monday the best part of the day was the morning, 5 hours of complete laziness! [just a preview of the 2 days record ;)]

and on tuesday i went to school, alone :( but in the afternoon i met maite and rosa to go for a walk and a coffee in kungstradgarden, because it was so sunny and full of people!
and back home to go to uli's to see the sunset eating icecream. but i couldn't enjoy it so much, because just before going andrea told us she had to leave at the beginning of may :'(

so the next days were quite strange...

it's all about two...

... two weeks i've been without being able to think, two days finding it difficult to breath, and two months left of not being two again.

but what i've won is so much... i came here knowing i would meet new people and that i would make friends, but what i didn't expect to find is a kind of sister, my second half.

as we said, i don't need to give you something for you to remember me, you have the whole of me...

thank you...



This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in fullblown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight
If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here

Yeah, love is a verb here in my room
Here in my room, here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary about eyes upon my scars

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl

surprise, surprise!

thursday (10th) started as a normal day, working in maite's again. gerard was also there some time, leaving and coming from time to time, and one of those times he came back with alberto as well. and 10 seconds later we heard the door again, we looked, and... there she was, laia, in maite's flat, just saying hello as if it was something normal... :D so imagine our faces! it actually took some seconds for me to react...
so after that we didn't work much more! some time talking there, some more in neus, laia going to visit all the others and seeing their reactions... :D
and of course at night big dinner in our place! that those days was also laia's home :)
we had to leave two hours or so to finish our presentation, and when i came back home everybody was leaving, so a hot chocolate and talking until late with laia, just as we used to do! :D

and on friday sleepy to the presentation, we were almost dying in the tunnelbana, but after a coffee and seeing that no one had worked as much as us, much better! but even with a great presentation that didn't matter, the only important issue for them is that we had to do separate parts, once and again it was the only thing they talked about...
so we were a bit disappointed, but we forgot about it going to eat sushi, also with laia and gerard :)
and after a few presentations more in the afternoon, we went for a walk and a chocolate in the centre. and back home to prepare some cakes for victor's birthday, and all together to his room to wait for him (he was coming that evening from a trip, and we had his spare key, so we tried to give him a surprise, like we did with diego!). so finally he came, surprise, cake, and everyone to our flat to have dinner, and then some games, and... nice time :)

so on saturday (12th) i did what i had said: sleep until 2, and just wake up in time to go to tallin! andrea also arrived just in time to leave, so both of us went a bit later and catched the rest in the centre...

the trip to tallin was crazy, it was organised by some student associations from different cities of sweden, so we were around 600 students in the boat, imagine... (and 30 of our sundby people!)

we left at 5, there was first a meeting with everyone, then we went shopping, dinner, coffee, walking around... and we went to "make a tetris" in our cabin, ahah, so many people! playing, drinking, whatever. and then we left to the show in the main theater, i had never seen so many people there! it was fun, dancing, partying... :D from there to the disco, the cabin, corridors, disco, cabin again... as usual in boat nights! but this time with people and party absolutely everywhere...
and after some changes in the cabins, we slept a bit, just a bit!

so i woke up on sunday still drunk, and i was not the only one! the way out the boat was really funny, with laia and uli, and the beginning of the walk :P
igor's cousin was there, so she showed us the city :) it was a pity that it was raining all the time, but it was nice anyway! and we had lunch in a very nice place, really long lunch! and back to the boat (laia and me getting lost on the way, but we managed :P).
then a short nap, and to the bar to see the others, that were playing cards. so we played, had dinner there (really well organised :P), then went to get some drinks, back to play more games... and to the show with sasha, then everybody (but i danced the last one with sasha, so nice! you can see he's professional :P). and we all stayed stayed there in the "empty" theater a while (a bit apart from the rest, nice moment... nice night btw! :) ), before we went to the disco, and as always: disco, corridors, cabin, disco, cabin... :D and it was also the first day in long time just having fun without caring about "outer world"!
oh, and nice that i could stop coughing for a while, ahah...

so less than two hours of sleep and we arrived to stockholm. funny trip back, lunch, long coffee, and some chapters of o.c.! a nap, and tyresö people came to say goodbye to laia!
then a nice dinner in the terrace all together, some games in jana's, a cup of cava in gerard's, and goodbye again to laia...

it was so nice to have her here again! even until the last day, sometimes i just looked at her not believing she was actually there... thank you!!!